ISU is coming to the end around 2 more weeks and I'm glad that's coming so fast..
After a while in college, I realize that it's totally not the same as high school.
However, what's more to come is my SEMESTER BREAK!! which falls on 19th June.
Just hope that I'll get more rest during that period of time.
Don't know is it I'm from the March intake and it just so rushing for me.
My heartbeat eventually are faster than usual last Friday because of the two major assignment that I need to hand up on that day itself and I'm not really 100% doing well in both of it

Self responsibility is a must to be mastered as I had been through whole this time. For myself, I'm still on the progress to learn all this and I dare not admit I'm good at that. I messed up everything most of the time.
However, you never leave me walk alone. There's no word how grateful I'm throughout all this time. The memory and all the little thing we had done it is just all over my heart itself.
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Tomorrow you'll be going to have a new life. It's going to be okay there Syg.
You'll be able to adapt to it very soon. If you face any problem there and you need someone, I'm there for you. Fake Fake I also your senior!
But at a different place =P
WHO ARE YOU MEN! NG I-FERN! Small kacang for you la.Ish
No matter what I'm here to listen.
Thanks for the day as well for not kicking me out.
I have fun also with you sister instead of you.
Sorry to tell you that. XD
*One thing I know that isn't going to change is what's inside both of us*

Left: The RETARDED one.. <3

Random Thought

Sometimes I'm just so lazy to do things and move my body. But at times I'm just lost of myself. I don't feel secure. I just want to get out from my life and stay inside the dream. But there's no such thing as it. I'm just a loser that worth nothing..
I need pressure only I will move my ass..somehow I'm slowly used to it already..
Just sometimes when more and more things come together. I'll lost my mind and need time to reorganize my work all over again.I learnt a lot this 2months and it just tells me that I'm living in a small world last time and there are more and more to go.
I need my semester break so badly.

Sometimes I'm just so Pathetic. I knew things are coming ahead but I chose to avoid it and pretend not to know that its happening and don't want to ask cause I believe things will go vice versa.I do care even if I looks like I'm not. Looking at one's breaking down and couldn't help. The feeling is worst than dying at times.

The feeling you gave me is so different from what i got previously.
& I'm very Thankful for that.. <3

What a day..

At first today(14/5/2010).. I wake up with a moderate mood even though i know its my day.Went To college... rush for the assignment survey so that i could hand up right on time to Mr.Colin..Hamlet's test after that..I cant wait the clock to reach 3.30pm. I wanted to see her so badly.. I miss Her.. =(

Going out with you is very satisfying already. You accompany me watch IPMAN2 which u had already watched before. I know you are trying to make me Happy in a way and yes I CAN TELL YOU THAT I'M very HAPPY TODAY!!!!
What a surprise...After watching the movie.. we went for a walk and how good of you.. saying you hungry and pulled me in TGIF..
All of them are over there..Who's all of them? Penny,Woei,Azwan,Andrew,Steffi,Joey,Dixon,Adwin,Angeline and not forgetting my syg..
Ok. i admit i'm touched at that moment.. i never thought that you will plan all this for me.
At the first point, What i was just thinking of spending the day with you =D
but you planned out so many for me.. Thanks Syg.. I appreciate it..
Don't be afraid of me getting mad.. I'm not.My mind just gone blank at that moment..
I'm not scare the world..... I LOVE YOU..
cause I know you worth the Love and Yes no one else could replace you. <3

Not knowing what else to say but just...Thanks for that guys especially
To:Ng-I Fern.. I hate you!!! U damn Jin Kak you know!!!! =D
You gave me a blast on my BIRTHDAY itself and you are there all the time with me.
I never regret To have you as my another half.. I do really mean it.
Not knowing what to say but... I Realllllly Love You that much..<3
and I will never forget what u had done for me.. =)

HAppy Birthday...

HAppy Birthday To myself.. Yea I'm 18 now and legal!!!! So Just Happy Birthday..

2/5/2010

Well ya college what else i wanted to say.. who say CPU is easy..
Nothing is easy there..
assignment staking up 1 by 1 and Im moving back step by step. I guess i'm gonna lost myself soon in this course.its somehow hard for me to concentrate after what I had gone through all this while..My mind just not into studies that much..
Sometimes I thought of giving up on this course and take up another 1... but its just a waste of time and money.. so better not to. just hold on as long as I can.
My grade gradually decrease compared to the marks previously..
English.. the worst ever subject..nvm forget bout it. I lost my track whenever I enter that class..
Friday ya.. the old tradition in my hse. 3weeks in a row.. Iraq Vs America.. bored of it .. somehow I choose to ignore it and continue with what im doing and i dont raelly care if u take me to compare with whosoever..
cause i know im still meeeeee.. i wont be changing much for it..
Niway. everytime I reach home.I can feel a peace here which is so empty and quiet.
everyone is busy doing their own stuff and guess what, i dont even bother talking to one another or entertaining them.
ITS like real EMPTY till i can ignore everything and lay on living room looking at the fan and think of random stuff.
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and yes after this, i realise that im actually living in my own world.
I thought u all will follow my idea like last time, but no..
I admit im wrong in this case, cause I'm trained to be like this.
ever since secondary, all of u cant make up any decision and i'll just random pick one and all of us will follow along.
i thought this time will be the same but hell ya im wrong..
End up some quarrel which nvr imagine things will comes to this stage.
I finally give up and just compromise with what u all want.
my selfish and ego causes alot of problems and discussion for u all i know.
I apologize to u all here if i ever did anything wrong..
Cause i cant afford to lose u all sincerely.
I dont wan bcoz of this and break up our friendship..
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No matter how many times in future this happens again,
I'll not leave u.like i said bfore no matter how much it cost and
it's worth it for me
i'm nt giving up on this even till the last minute.
its not easy to go through all that to reach here and i'll keep it on.
Just hope that u can fulfill my that *a bit little more* quest.
i know its a little bit evil eventhough part of it is from my selfishness..
I'm out of words already now..ya sry im not good at presenting myself in words
and just to let u know that I Love You and thats the facts that will nvr change. <3