2/5/2010

Well ya college what else i wanted to say.. who say CPU is easy..
Nothing is easy there..
assignment staking up 1 by 1 and Im moving back step by step. I guess i'm gonna lost myself soon in this course.its somehow hard for me to concentrate after what I had gone through all this while..My mind just not into studies that much..
Sometimes I thought of giving up on this course and take up another 1... but its just a waste of time and money.. so better not to. just hold on as long as I can.
My grade gradually decrease compared to the marks previously..
English.. the worst ever subject..nvm forget bout it. I lost my track whenever I enter that class..
Friday ya.. the old tradition in my hse. 3weeks in a row.. Iraq Vs America.. bored of it .. somehow I choose to ignore it and continue with what im doing and i dont raelly care if u take me to compare with whosoever..
cause i know im still meeeeee.. i wont be changing much for it..
Niway. everytime I reach home.I can feel a peace here which is so empty and quiet.
everyone is busy doing their own stuff and guess what, i dont even bother talking to one another or entertaining them.
ITS like real EMPTY till i can ignore everything and lay on living room looking at the fan and think of random stuff.
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and yes after this, i realise that im actually living in my own world.
I thought u all will follow my idea like last time, but no..
I admit im wrong in this case, cause I'm trained to be like this.
ever since secondary, all of u cant make up any decision and i'll just random pick one and all of us will follow along.
i thought this time will be the same but hell ya im wrong..
End up some quarrel which nvr imagine things will comes to this stage.
I finally give up and just compromise with what u all want.
my selfish and ego causes alot of problems and discussion for u all i know.
I apologize to u all here if i ever did anything wrong..
Cause i cant afford to lose u all sincerely.
I dont wan bcoz of this and break up our friendship..
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No matter how many times in future this happens again,
I'll not leave u.like i said bfore no matter how much it cost and
it's worth it for me
i'm nt giving up on this even till the last minute.
its not easy to go through all that to reach here and i'll keep it on.
Just hope that u can fulfill my that *a bit little more* quest.
i know its a little bit evil eventhough part of it is from my selfishness..
I'm out of words already now..ya sry im not good at presenting myself in words
and just to let u know that I Love You and thats the facts that will nvr change. <3