How many times in your life you made decisions after knowing the consequences?
I am impress how can others survive for years of separating and yet be so strong? I am still looking foward for the moment where things reunite but I doubt the feelings will be the same anymore. Knowing how much things change from the pure and innocent act to a place where it leads to misunderstand and expectations. It goes vice versa. I hear this from somewhere, whatever happens to you, there will be a pros and a cons coming after ward. What if things happen to us and it only comes with cons after cons.
It is already difficult back then and why is it happening when far apart. No one feels good and things just arent falling on the right place. Why so?
Why things always just got backfire and so scare of hurting again.
I have no idea. I just don't want to be....

At times, no is now. I feel the feeling of lost of motivation and confidence. I used to be a person that are burst with laughter and confidence whenever I go. But, recently. I find myself lost every of it. EVERY BIT of it. Why? I don't know. Too much factors that were included and keeps me thinking. thinking of if I am really that capable to be the person i was meant to be or to be this is the real me. Who knows? None. Not even myself. Whatever had happened, will not be turn back time. Whatever I have implement on mind, it will stay there. Where my boundary are, how far I can think is out of my imagination.
However, for now, i lost every spirit to continue fighting, to continue to move foward. I guess I really need sometime for myself to really think what I want.
The self esteem I used to have, has now far gone beyond I can hold.

Looks like light from heaven for me. This is the scenery from my apartment around evening.
It caught my attention today so I decided to take a photo of it.

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Got something new for me to chew and bite and to eat when I am stressing over something. They fly all the way from Malaysia to here and thanks to my girlfriend I have my favourite chocolates here with me.

The CHOCOLATES. *YUMMZZ*

Not to forget the most lovely spongebob alarm clock. :)

All thanks to her :)

Football For Life

Think so this would be my first ever post of the stuff I done in Melbourne ever since I reach here for like 3months. Okay, this is how it goes. I have never watch any football match live as in stadium. Despite my primary school football match and secondary school football match at those lousy muddy field which looks like this Even buffaloes would enjoy playing dive and screech in a muddy field like this.

It is different here and way more comfy and high class.
Before showing any pictures inside the stadium, the match is between
Melbourne Victory and Sydney.
The crowd was as much as 40315 people in that stadium. Was quite a lot I know.

Tickets of 2. With my bro

The Crowd

Could see the difference of field in Malaysia and here?

Harry Kewell was in Melb Vic team, those people who knows who is him that good otherwise skip this.

Quickie

Has been quite awhile, ever since things went our perfectly for me. Things just doesn't look going on the right track. Will miracle come after this, Hoping things would go back on track and everything is going to be fine.
The unicorn and rainbow that I miss seeing in my life.
Wanting to have everything in my hand like the love old time but it just out of my....
The palm is just too small for everything.
Well, will work things out if possible *cheer!*

There are people who hide themselves in other people praying for their happiness.
There are also people who wants to be other's happiness.
Which type of people are you?
Which type of human am I?