There are times when you make me laugh
there are moments when you drive me mad
there are seconds when I see the light
though many times you made me cry

There's something you don't understand
I want to be your man

Chorus:
Nothing to lose
your love to win
hoping so bad that you'll let me in

I'm at your feet
waiting for you
I've got time and nothing to lose

There are times when I believe in you
these moments when I feel close to you
there are times I think that I am yours
though many times I feel unsure

There's something you don't understand
I want to be your man

Chorus:
Nothing to lose
your love to win
hoping so bad that you'll let me in

I'm at your feet
waiting for you
I've got time and nothing to lose
I'll always be around you
keep an eye on you
cos my patience is strong
and I won't let you run
cos you are the only one

Nothing to lose
your love to win
hoping so bad that you'll let me in

I'm at your feet
waiting for you
I've got time and nothing

Just like another day in college. Waiting for friend after my class ended.

As I was thinking, it is about time for a change. A change for a better future. But at the same time there is also stuff that I concern. However, for now I am not going to post anything emotional because I am not.

Things have been going very smooth recently. It is just the matter of fact that how we look at it. I learned how to look at it. Well, I will try to maintain it in the good condition.

I just feel like writing this.
While for you, being together by my side is never easy. However we still manage to pull it through and come over to here. It is just so delightful and lighten my inner heart to know that there is a person that I could rely on, I could miss of every time I open my eye. Be my listener and look into every side of me.
To the person that look after me when I in whatever stages.
I appreciate your existence in my life lots :)

alright, i'm in a mess now. I don't know what's in my mind. There's alot and alot turning inside out. Having such dilemma deep in myself, i myself don't even know how it happens. I tried to be very good to myself but it turns out badly every time it comes to the end. I hated myself, I hated myself for why i'm behaving such way, why i got jealous so easily, why i got frustrated so fast, why i can't even think nicely, why i can't even distract myself, why i can't even be myself, why i ruin my own life in my own hand, why i know how to advise other people and i can't do it, there's so many why in my mind. and seriously I HATE EXPECTATION! since from small i hate and now i've all grown up i still hate that a lot.
Perhaps i'm not too good in anything. I can't even keep things in it's shape and turn out in a mess every time. yet i don't even know how to read people's mind. Yes alot of people said i've been talking to myself. I admitted that's very true.. Very true, i have been talking to myself a lot. Questioning and answering myself. i just hate how much life torture me. and more like i torture myself.
How much i wish i can just punch on something and everything just flies off like that. I don't like to be alone. but i cant do anything. shut up.

Things are just so unpredictable, humans are just so horrible
you can't really judge them inside out no matter how close you are with them. It really suck a lot
Being understanding and being in the exact position are totally two different view of saying it
The outlook and the inner of it... at last i understand what it means by faking a smile
Yes I studied psychology but it doesn't mean that i know it all. There's still a lot to be learned
It gives you a trauma whenever you face something and you dare not do it again or say it again
Thinking twice before doing something and scare of the consequences
That's what is it all about

Fraser Hill

This holiday was a worth spending holiday. Ignoring all the other working and exams, I shall continue with my holiday trip. It was something that I've never thought and I enjoyed it.
First of all I went to Fraser hill which located at Pahang with families. It was a tired trip because I will be the driver most of the time. That was the first ever time I visit that place. It was quite okay the environment there. Especially with the FRESH COLD AIR! Let the pictures do the talking.
And also to let RonYap know how we spent our holiday. XD

Have been a long time I never really write a post of my own life. There's nothing much interesting happen. Normal daily life and some shock at times. Die Die hanging to wait for assignments. This semester is not as hectic as the previous one. Not that much work loaded but there's also just the matter of a longer duration to do it. It has been almost 2months ever since I enter this semester. Knew quite a numbers of new friends from other semester but didn't really got bonded with them. Might as well mind my own business.

Oh well GOOD! I need to take my both test on the same day which is this Wednesday and the Role play as well. I might be wearing a dress because I will be taking over a woman's character. Holy COW!! Have to pay for the consequences for picking the easy work.

Not to complain on stuff or anything but I really hate weekends at times. I'll just feel how much lifeless I am doing something that is not progressive. That's me, how I deal with stuff and convincing myself over stuff. But HEY! holiday's coming! real soon...Half of me wants this holiday so badly but another half of me is terrified of it. People out there that knows me well will know why. Don't really want to mention it here. However it conclude all that I really want to rest.

I really really got a lot I want to do, but obstacles are around stops me from doing it. How much I wish I am a superman and I could just fly in and out. Jumper can be taken as consideration too. Likewise, I will just stick there and take every single opportunity I fight it back. Changing a new environment is not a bad thing. But I don't have a chance to do so. Just shut up and not talk much. Enjoy with I have now and appreciate it. :)

HEY 2 MORE BLOODY FREAKING 6AM WAKE UP DAY AND I'LL BE HAVING MY HOLIDAY ALREADY!!
GOOD BYE 6AM!

Because you loved me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me




When i heard of this song I thought of you. <3