All About my Life !!!!

I always wanted to write down something out of everything that have happened to me recently in this month. Have been a very unpredictable journey yet things still need to remain still. Getting to wake up safe and sound the second day or even in a journey could be the best thing ever that I can ask already. Not to know where to start where I should saying or telling. Guess I am just lost in this maze. Not knowing where this should lead to or even know who should i refer to. It is just saddening to be in this shoe. Whatever that should come never come, and whatever that should happen never happen. Those said, life is a test itself. Being able to go through everyday is already the damn best thing already.

At times, i question myself. How could i make myself looked so cruel, too cold blooded to make it as if I have no feelings toward everything. But, whenever, I think of it back, it still hit me hard. The physical pain in the heart. Even when there are times, I couldn't resist it but I have to. Have to pretend as if I don't feel anything. Every night, I told myself i would be alright, it is the same every night. Please... Please... somebody I really feel at times I can't take this...