Things are just so unpredictable, humans are just so horrible
you can't really judge them inside out no matter how close you are with them. It really suck a lot
Being understanding and being in the exact position are totally two different view of saying it
The outlook and the inner of it... at last i understand what it means by faking a smile
Yes I studied psychology but it doesn't mean that i know it all. There's still a lot to be learned
It gives you a trauma whenever you face something and you dare not do it again or say it again
Thinking twice before doing something and scare of the consequences
That's what is it all about

Fraser Hill

This holiday was a worth spending holiday. Ignoring all the other working and exams, I shall continue with my holiday trip. It was something that I've never thought and I enjoyed it.
First of all I went to Fraser hill which located at Pahang with families. It was a tired trip because I will be the driver most of the time. That was the first ever time I visit that place. It was quite okay the environment there. Especially with the FRESH COLD AIR! Let the pictures do the talking.
And also to let RonYap know how we spent our holiday. XD

Have been a long time I never really write a post of my own life. There's nothing much interesting happen. Normal daily life and some shock at times. Die Die hanging to wait for assignments. This semester is not as hectic as the previous one. Not that much work loaded but there's also just the matter of a longer duration to do it. It has been almost 2months ever since I enter this semester. Knew quite a numbers of new friends from other semester but didn't really got bonded with them. Might as well mind my own business.

Oh well GOOD! I need to take my both test on the same day which is this Wednesday and the Role play as well. I might be wearing a dress because I will be taking over a woman's character. Holy COW!! Have to pay for the consequences for picking the easy work.

Not to complain on stuff or anything but I really hate weekends at times. I'll just feel how much lifeless I am doing something that is not progressive. That's me, how I deal with stuff and convincing myself over stuff. But HEY! holiday's coming! real soon...Half of me wants this holiday so badly but another half of me is terrified of it. People out there that knows me well will know why. Don't really want to mention it here. However it conclude all that I really want to rest.

I really really got a lot I want to do, but obstacles are around stops me from doing it. How much I wish I am a superman and I could just fly in and out. Jumper can be taken as consideration too. Likewise, I will just stick there and take every single opportunity I fight it back. Changing a new environment is not a bad thing. But I don't have a chance to do so. Just shut up and not talk much. Enjoy with I have now and appreciate it. :)

HEY 2 MORE BLOODY FREAKING 6AM WAKE UP DAY AND I'LL BE HAVING MY HOLIDAY ALREADY!!
GOOD BYE 6AM!

Because you loved me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me




When i heard of this song I thought of you. <3

Though I have did alot of mistake and hurt you for times. I don't deserve to be forgiven and you still give me the chance to love you again. Thanks alot love. I don't mind how u treat me. I deserve all this payback for what I've put in with my own bare hand. I will still treat you the same as always and stand by you regardless of things. Having you around back is a gift from god. Sending such a person to care for me and I myself was a idiot that don't appreciate and take good care of your heart. A lot of things that you face and I never help you out. I feel bad for everything. I really want to stand for you every time. But i ended up making it a mess.I really want to see you happy again. Seeing you like this and much more you will be facing is the worst thing ever.
For now Ng I-Fern. i know i don't have the right to say much to you.
But I love you since the day one. Things that i've done are just unforgivable yet I really want you to be by my side. I really us. Anyways, i will always be waiting for you till the day become bright again no matter how long it takes i will always wait.

Yet another morning, but this morning abit more special. A day where I thought that the day will be the same but it's not! Reach college around 7.40am, I was SHOCKED! all the CPUs' student gather at the ground floor and saying the electric got cut and the whole day might have no class if this continues. After awhile of waiting, the technician fixed the problem but looking at the time has already passed the 1st period. The lecturer announced that the 1st period class will be canceled due to time matter. Well that's fine for me because I will be having business leadership class for 1st period. Went to oldtown with bunch of friends and I guess oldtown is just a freaking ugly lucky ass. They will be so rich this morning. Most of the Cpu student are all over the place.
After the breakfast, I went back to the building was about to go up to 4th floor but half way there I heard that the class have been canceled too. Just because the lecturer wants every period to be equal so that she will be teaching the same lesson to every class. That why I have my own sweet time blogging here this morning.
Was wondering can I skip the moral class and OLC, if I get to skip both of the class then I don't have to come over here today for nothing. Somehow I can't or maybe I can? well see 1st.

Stupid blueblack is getting worst by day. Somehow it feels pain even if i didn't walk to anywhere.


Sorry if i made something wrong in between. I don't wish that to happen.
I just can't hold myself back from how I'm thinking. It is just overtaking me and I'm struggling with it. Forgive me for being so selfish at my own. But I do really care and I don't want us to be like how we are just because of this small little crap. It's nothing one. I know we can get this through.

Life's just getting better by day I guess. I'm not sure when things will hit me again but I'm very satisfy with what I have. Well human always ask for me by time. Stable down with life and getting much better by the flow of my routine. Just that sometimes it would have heartache and urge to see someone such badly. Nothing special happened to me recently but just a normal college life waiting for stuff to hit on me. What I'm happy now is that waking up every morning with blessed and love.
Been learning all the way and hoping that I could hold all this stay strong. I BET I WILL! I'M VERY DETERMINED IN THIS!

Nothing much I want to write here but just a BIG BLESS THANK YOU.
Thanks for not feeling that I'm annoying over stuff and prove to me again and again =D
I just love the way you help me out over things.
Me too, here wishing that you could smile everyday like how you are with me. =)