All About my Life !!!!

2011-11-07T23:51:00.002+08:00

How many times in your life you made decisions after knowing the consequences?
I am impress how can others survive for years of separating and yet be so strong? I am still looking foward for the moment where things reunite but I doubt the feelings will be the same anymore. Knowing how much things change from the pure and innocent act to a place where it leads to misunderstand and expectations. It goes vice versa. I hear this from somewhere, whatever happens to you, there will be a pros and a cons coming after ward. What if things happen to us and it only comes with cons after cons.
It is already difficult back then and why is it happening when far apart. No one feels good and things just arent falling on the right place. Why so?
Why things always just got backfire and so scare of hurting again.
I have no idea. I just don't want to be....

2011-10-18T19:42:00.002+08:00

At times, no is now. I feel the feeling of lost of motivation and confidence. I used to be a person that are burst with laughter and confidence whenever I go. But, recently. I find myself lost every of it. EVERY BIT of it. Why? I don't know. Too much factors that were included and keeps me thinking. thinking of if I am really that capable to be the person i was meant to be or to be this is the real me. Who knows? None. Not even myself. Whatever had happened, will not be turn back time. Whatever I have implement on mind, it will stay there. Where my boundary are, how far I can think is out of my imagination.
However, for now, i lost every spirit to continue fighting, to continue to move foward. I guess I really need sometime for myself to really think what I want.
The self esteem I used to have, has now far gone beyond I can hold.

2011-10-11T20:08:00.002+08:00

Looks like light from heaven for me. This is the scenery from my apartment around evening.
It caught my attention today so I decided to take a photo of it.

( :

2011-10-09T19:08:00.002+08:00

Got something new for me to chew and bite and to eat when I am stressing over something. They fly all the way from Malaysia to here and thanks to my girlfriend I have my favourite chocolates here with me.

The CHOCOLATES. *YUMMZZ*

Not to forget the most lovely spongebob alarm clock. :)

All thanks to her :)

Football For Life

2011-10-08T22:24:00.006+08:00

Think so this would be my first ever post of the stuff I done in Melbourne ever since I reach here for like 3months. Okay, this is how it goes. I have never watch any football match live as in stadium. Despite my primary school football match and secondary school football match at those lousy muddy field which looks like this Even buffaloes would enjoy playing dive and screech in a muddy field like this.

It is different here and way more comfy and high class.
Before showing any pictures inside the stadium, the match is between
Melbourne Victory and Sydney.
The crowd was as much as 40315 people in that stadium. Was quite a lot I know.

Tickets of 2. With my bro

The Crowd

Could see the difference of field in Malaysia and here?

Harry Kewell was in Melb Vic team, those people who knows who is him that good otherwise skip this.

Quickie

2011-10-03T21:32:00.003+08:00

Has been quite awhile, ever since things went our perfectly for me. Things just doesn't look going on the right track. Will miracle come after this, Hoping things would go back on track and everything is going to be fine.
The unicorn and rainbow that I miss seeing in my life.
Wanting to have everything in my hand like the love old time but it just out of my....
The palm is just too small for everything.
Well, will work things out if possible *cheer!*

2011-09-10T16:27:00.011+08:00

There are people who hide themselves in other people praying for their happiness.
There are also people who wants to be other's happiness.
Which type of people are you?
Which type of human am I?

The Plan

2011-09-03T23:44:00.003+08:00

After staying here for several weeks. I realize, I actually am proud to be a Malaysian and I miss my home country dearly. Thinking of getting some life here but it was a rocky road. Obstacle starts whenever you wake up and start looking at the world. Everyone has their problems more than other can see from their eye and understanding.
From here, I truly understand that what is like to have this kind of feeling at times. Feeling that just couldn't explained by words somewhat complicated.
At times, looking at more things could

I have lots of plan in my mind and tons of things I want to do with that someone. Lots of plans. Wondering do I still have the chance later on.
Wanting someone to listen to them and see if it is a good idea but I guess I shall just put it in somewhere before I forget about some of it cause I will be getting more busy soon cause more things are coming ahead already.

To have a better understanding of something doesn't mean need to listen and look through it. It is more than that. The best way to appreciate is to feel the pain.
Loving someone and he/she didnt love you the way you want doesnt mean he/she doesn't love you.
To believe is to have faith.

Has been a long time I never see your face already. Wondering how are you already.
Missing the moment seeing you once I wake up and that is the first ever thing that comes in my mind back then. The image is fading already.
Truly miss you <3

2011-09-03T15:36:00.002+08:00

Whatever I did was never good enough.

2011-08-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

Is time to move on, is time to get back on track and settle down everything. Yap Chee Yuan, start getting on your lifeless life.

The Start Of Something New

2011-08-01T21:59:00.005+08:00

This time, I will be blogging about how I am in this new city. A very familiar or even common name to be told, Melbourne. I reached here safely since last week and was busy settling down and exploring this new place. I didn't come here alone but with my mum's accompany, I am not that lonely. Practically she is here for holiday while for me is for a better future that is my studies. I didn't know if I did the right choice or not but what I can say here is nothing, since I am here I have to accept my life and go on with it. No matter how much I miss You and everyone. I know nothing I can change no matter what. Is time to face the reality boy.

For the first week, it is kinda like a holiday for me since my orientation has been delayed to Thursday instead of Monday(which is today). Which is a good thing so that I can have more time to spend with my mum before she goes back to Malaysia. She deserves some time to rest and take some break after working hard the half of her life.

This is some little picture of us. The Thief
The Lovey One
Trying Something New To Her
After A Tiring Day
<3

2011-07-19T00:04:00.002+08:00

If, there is a guide line / book in life I would be happy to follow it so at least I wouldn't disappoint everyone.
Sadly, the fact is we are our own guideline. We are our own government.
Those who wish to stay , stay.
Those who couldn't accept it, sadly to tell that I have change and I am not who you want me to be.

Motionless

2011-07-06T01:23:00.002+08:00

Will we ever look back only when we missed out the train or we will always be aware of things around us and start putting them as one of all the things that we always cherish for.
Try to become a human that live with no regret by fighting for what we believe in. That is not a code i live by but I am starting to developing it to myself recently.
A very minor things we are facing now might not be much but when it comes to a bigger picture, it has a different meaning to it. This minor things that help to make the whole picture to be perfect.
Start appreciate everything before it is gone for good. I myself will too.

The Road

2011-07-05T02:17:00.003+08:00

Who wouldn't want to have this road sign in their life.
Prefer walking into this knowing that there are hope than to drag down the road that are full of memories that I don't wish for.
This is something what we fight for or it will comes to us?
I really don't know how to answer myself.

The Holiday with Love

2011-06-30T02:26:00.003+08:00

After going through everything, we actually make it on a holiday together. Although is just a day but it is better than nothing. I enjoyed the day cause is just both of us. No one else. Good place , Good food and Good Day of course.

Thanks for the memories and effort too just to make things happen.

The Graduation

2011-06-30T02:15:00.002+08:00

Been quite lazy want to post stuff whenever I thought of posting something.
Something that related to my life or not.
Something that related to every obstacles and turning of my life or not.
Something that makes me smile or sad.
As a conclusion, just like my title, is all about my life.

Fyi, I have graduated from CPU, my so call exp college(Taylor) last week. Hardly I remember which day. The graduation ceremony wasn't that boring. Perhaps the speeches wasn't that dull I think. Just can't believe how time flies. Now we have to say good bye to each other after studying together for 1 and a half year. From a stranger place became a place where I lies my routine there, from people around the world and states comes together and study along and be friends. The feeling of just getting to know someone well and is time to say good bye. How fast could that be ryte.

I almost couldn't hold my tear from flowing that graduation day itself. Couldn't imagine this is the time that everyone will give their last hugs after every dramas and challenge in life. Is time to accept the fact, this is life. Someone comes and goes. The one who stays, fate will determine it.

2011-06-17T01:10:00.000+08:00

A flight that says it all :)

You were the One and only one

2011-06-12T01:49:00.002+08:00

When I look at this picture, many things passes through my mind.
You were the one I LOVE and now you still are the one that always go through my mind day and night.
If life really pushes us apart, I want us to fight for it like we always do.
If you are down, I want to be the light that lead you way.
If you are happy, I want to be apart of it by sharing it with you in anyway.

You are always my Favourite Person <3

2011-05-24T23:54:00.001+08:00

ARLOOOOOOOOOO....

Its that day again!!!
hahahaha..

Its already the 14th :):)

Happy or not?
Happy hor hor hor :D:D

2011-05-17T00:47:00.002+08:00

Happy belated Birthday to myself. I am lazy enough not to post it on my birthday it self. I will just make it short and simple since I am so sleep and tired already now. All i want to say is, I ever realize many people around me actually would take their effort just to go out with me or just have a meal with me on my big day itself. Thanks all, esp YOU. I wouldnt want you to spend this much in a day just to see me happy what more drove me all day long here and there. It was the most AWESOME birthday celebration I had before just with you :) much appreciated everything you have done for me.

Happy Labours Day!

2011-05-01T02:36:00.005+08:00

YOOOHOOO!!! :)

It's been a while, I'm just bored and now since i'm having my holidays I'm actually quite free to spam here again.

I know you are very jealous, you would just anything to have at least a week holiday or prolly just at least one day. Am I right? But wait, you're going on a holiday later today. Enjoy :)

Now you're sleeping like a pig since you haven't been sleeping well because you had to scare yourself bye watching Orphan. ahahahahah.

Anyways there's nothing much to say already.

-the hacker-

2011-04-21T01:12:00.002+08:00

Just some random question that pops up in my mind.

Is 24hours enough for everyone?
For me personally, it is not even enough.

Weekends

2011-04-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

I suppose weekends is nothing special but some random holidays after a 5days of hell in school or college. For me it isn't. This weekends is like something special, some feeling of mine that I haven't been felt after so long. As usual Saturday is another day where I have to work especially my aunty took 2months holiday so leaving my mum and sister only. Much more help is needed there. compared to anywhere in my world. That's nothing cause that is what I am suppose to do.

Besides that, today is one hell of a long day. Get to sleep as much as I can and I feel sinful to do so. It feels like a waste of time to sleep this long when I have all the time to do things. After thinking awhile on bed I have nothing on hand so whatever it is I will just go drop down and die on bed. Whole day at house, nothing but rot rot rot and rot. Quite boring.

Luckily bought some books to read yesterday to fill in my time. Assignment on hand but is a group work so whatsoever if everyone else doesn't care about it who I care? Is a bad thing but tomorrow will complete it.

After bro went back to Aus, the room is left quite empty. Two single bed and I alone is sleeping one of it only. During the night it has became a habit to lock the door and turn off all the lights except the one I am using. It somehow tells my parents from outside that I am sleeping already since the light is off but I am still using the one at the back of the room to online and do nonsense.

I guess that's a random post from me since I am bored now.

2011-03-31T23:34:00.002+08:00

So is already Thursday and one quarter of 2011 is about to pass. Nothing much to be mention today cause nothing much special.
I thought that today's CS class they will only teach osslt stuff for tml's test but who knows the lecturer did actually taught some of the codes and new concept and I missed that out. Tim texted me and snapped me up.
Didn't really eat much for dinner cause don't really have much appetite for it. It happens quite a lot of times for me already so is not really a big thing to be said since I got nothing much to type here.
Trying to keep things work hopefully it will be alright.
Anyways, might be going somewhere else tomorrow. Hope it will be productive. :)

2011-03-29T23:06:00.002+08:00

So, I will try to make it a habit to post it here for whatsoever nonsense or things that I want to say when no one is ever interested in hearing it. Cause i know no one bother coming over here and read all my bullshit.

As I know ISU is coming and will be pretty busy in the coming days. Well not very busy but will have task on hand that need to be complete. Computer Science's ISU is to create a program of game if i am not mistaken. I am still very vague in this subject even though it has already passed 3months of lesson. I don't always get what is the theory given and how it applies. What more I am a lazy bump.
For IB, that will be way terrible or simple which I also dont know cause it is a group work and my group got like 5ppl including me. Hope it works out well. At the end of this ISU we still have to make a presentation for our product. Today I suggested to them that a book reader like thingy and they actually accepted my idea. What i was thinking is something that is affordable and widely used in the market. What is in my mind at that moment is that, when i look at the novel and my mind starts to think that how perfect and awesome it will be if someone would read it loud for me instead of me reading it myself and falling asleep slowly. and POP the idea comes out. Well all this nonsense is nothing. just something for me to rant over.
As I talk to zhen sern today, actually i find him as a very interesting guy. Talking to him I get to learn and see something in the conversation. Yes he might be a guy that has a lot of night life but I find him as a very special guy.

He started asking Amanda how long she has been best friend with krystal. Amanda answered him since they were in high school. After that he stopped asked and Amanda asked why he ask so. So there is where he explains. Hierarchy of needs. The need of companionship after achieving physiological and safety needs. There are still two more stage after companionship. He interrelate the friendship of Amanda and Krystal by using this term.

Okay finish craps. Done for today :)

payback time Xp

2011-03-21T21:32:00.002+08:00

So today right, I followed somebody to her uni. Its not really my first time there but it's still as boring as ever what more I was having a little difficulty so it made time passed even slower. But because of her I would do anything :) since she only went there to do her assignments. Anyways back to story, So today in the morning I crashed her house then we went and have our breakfast as usual. Then headed straight to her uni. AFter everything , sent her home and there's probably all of it. OWH and today I don't know why but I'm very blur. I keep forgetting things. I think I must be getting old. :/

2011-03-18T00:36:00.003+08:00

Well at times, I asked myself.
Is this really the life i want?
Is this really worth it?
Why am I always living in lies until I have to be one.
Am I too coward? or I just worried too much?
Does anyone out there understand what I am doing ?
Why am I always avoiding problems when it comes to me.

Maybe, after a period of time all of this will goes disappear.

2011-03-15T00:43:00.002+08:00

Looking down the street, everyone has their problem in mind. The matter of facts how important is the problem to them and what consequences will come after them by the problems. Some are being disappointed by something because hopes are put in and nothing comes out is being expected. That applies in every where as i can see. Some people tried so hard to protect themselves from being harm and said things that couldnt take back. Some people tried so hard just to forget bout it by doing things that they think it would be the best distraction or even drunk themselves. There is also human that feel so regret just because he said something without thinking straight and after looking back only he knows that he is the worst nightmare for himself. Theory that can be understand so easily but he tend to make it complicated.
Nothing cannot be solve, just that it depends on what kind of way and how much a person want to give in. Yet, he always lost himself when he is in that situation. Looking back again he could have just think another way round. That's not the only thing he can do. He hated himself so much when he look back. A time machine perhaps? but that's not possible.
So what can be do is to learn , learn and learn everytime.
Whenever he learn something, he applies but until a certain time he forget about it. so he learn again. He wish he could have a whistle blower to blow him up whenever he feel like he is losing himself. My guess he just have to snap it out himself and make it a routine everyday.

2011-03-09T00:43:00.003+08:00

I am like what, a dumb nut now? Calling me out just to fill in the space and all? What more you all want. I don't feel the same anymore. The feeling and the bond of me with you all isn't the same already. If you all realize that, i Don't even talk anymore. I prefer you all talk and i listen and pretend nothing happen cause I don't even get to cope up with your topic. FML okay. What more can i give you all. Giving you all tease for what ever I have said? is not once, twice but most of the time alright. Do I even still exist ? I am so lazy , so so tired of doing the middleman for nothing.
Absolutely many ppl would even think that why I doubt so much when things are always like this and why do i even mind now when i dont mind since from last time.
Human change, i got my own limit in everything. When i don't feel right i don't really talk it out of no use. Just don't go over my limit.

2011-02-23T00:31:00.004+08:00

On behalf of everything, every steps that have been taken has its pros and cons. Depending on how much one side stands to. Seeing the cons as an advantage to take a step ahead to change the condition into a better one or just to let it there and accept it. Not much will listen to what is ugly on the other side and there is also people that is willing to accept and listen to it as they are willing to change it for a better future.
While for the outsider or people who are facing every of it, they can choose to tell or not to tell. Tell because they are honest and hoping that a change could be made. For people who doesn't want to tell is because they accept everything including flaws. Yet, they might be thinking the consequences of telling it out might be terrible or even worst cause not every people has the same mentality of interpreting the intention of one.
So every of this is contradicting with each another.

There is also one more way to solve all this is just to look upon the pros more than the cons. That will make life easier and make things better :)
So that is how I am suppose to conclude and come out with a solution for this.

Something very very random.

2011-02-21T01:57:00.002+08:00

Getting a new speaker does not mean everything, is more like who you got it from that matters am I right? You really don't have to be so thankful also towards something that small. You like it then its good enough :)

A small world you may have, distancing yourself from the crowd too won't be a good thing.
Take a hike, climb the mountain you might be able to see how beautiful the world maybe.
It's not just black and white, it has more colours to it.
Open your eyes and you'll see everything.
If you're afraid I will climb the mountain with you.
It's time to find your light. Don't hide yourself in the dark maze already.
Butterflies, rainbows, Sun and all the beauty of nature is waiting for you.

-Your pillar of support-

2011-02-21T00:38:00.004+08:00

Try to imagine , living your life as a fish. In an aquarium or sea. That is not what you are able to decide and choose. You were send and born to be at where you are. You prefer living in an aquarium that is full of protection or living underneath the big ocean that is dangerous yet adventurous?

2011-02-19T23:48:00.002+08:00

Looking in the windows, seeing the stressful faces on everyone tells me how fast the speed of life is going on. Without even thinking twice nor thinking for other ppl, everyone wants the best. Yes I am one of them I admit. Doing everything that is possible just to get the aim for that day itself. Neglecting the feeling of other people. How rare we could find people that would always think and being such considerate for people that are anonymous to them. A thing for sure is that they will be kind and good for the one they loved. At times, being good to other people and in conjunction to be cruel to ourselves. That is something that many people couldn't see when they are in the opposite position. To put on a mask to go through everyday makes a person hypocrite, but after quite sometime of doing it some minority or even majority people will found out that is the life they want to live. Confront to every environment, people, atmosphere isn't really what one wants.
Anyways, looking at the bright side.. if god close your door but they will always open a window for you. I found my window of everyday. Window of my life. Believing that the door isn't close and still manage to walk through it. Makes a person stronger in a way. Pessimistic and Optimistic is just bit of a difference. Where to stand is all up to one person. Where to decide. At times, there is always people that is hanging in between the both. However, time will flush it away and come out with a better solution of all.

2011-02-19T01:08:00.003+08:00

You came to my blog so now it's my turn to write something here. Nothing much I can really say since we didn't anything interesting this few days so I drop by say hi also good enough :D.

It's been awhile since I said anything. Plus its the first time I'm writing in some other people's blog and this time its you! Funny how things go hor. You write for me I write for you? weird much like really hor?

Anyways just to cut things short since I've got nothing to say. Everytime I tell you how much I appreciate having you I do mean it. Thanks for pampering me every day :) ILY

-hantu-

2011-01-19T11:01:00.004+08:00

It has been a long ever since i put my hand on keyboard and type for my blog. i have started my college which having the 3rd sem now. It wouldn't be that hard anymore for this sem i hope cause i don"t have much subjects to study. With this little amount of subject is enough to kill my time off. Nothing comes free. i have to pay a price for this and the price i have to pay now is my time. Well it is not as bad as i see the time they gave me just that i don't want it. It is not preferable for me myself. Not as perfect as I've planned and i have to stick with it just because of them saying the class if full already.
Myself to be blamed for all. My laziness had delayed the registration and change of timetable. Ok for now i am done with it. look at it at a brighter side. I can do what i always wanted to do now every day. well not everyday but most of the day :)
that's more than enough already. not to ask more.
and one more thing, for now all those friends are all around. YES THEY ARE ALL AROUND BUT NOT IN GROUP. meeting different humans everyday and not having a permanent group is just so hectic. somehow i'm lost in this building. is time to try to make new friends i guess and i'm just so lazy =/
For me, time will prove everything and reorganize my daily routine. trying to be better everyday ! :) YAP CHEE YUAN YOU CAN DO IT!

Superwoman

2010-12-29T17:16:00.001+08:00

early in the morning i put breakfast at your table
yi ye dou mei shui dan wo bu ceng ru ci qing xing
wo zao can zhun bei le ni ai chi de dong xi
zhe ci huan wo deng ni bei ka fei de xiang wei jiao xing
xiang yao zhao hui mei tian cao chen dui wo wei xiao zhe de ni
hai neng gou zuo xie shen me dai ti wo de qian yi
zong shi wang zhe wo xiao xin yi yi shun zhe wo hu xi
er wo jing ran li suo dang ran rang ni jing pi li jin
you were my superwoman
an jing de zai shen bian wu tiao jian gei wo meng mei yi qiu de wen rou
but i am only human
wo zen me bu dong ni duo ji mo can ren de fan le cuo
bu neng shi qu ni
ooh—babe—
you fought your way through the rush hour
try to make it home just for me
yue guang xia jing jing kao zhe bi ci zhi qiu ye chang yi dian
you duo jiu mei you hao hao kan ni zhi shi ren ding le wo
wu lun zai shen me shi hou hui tou dou you ni de xiao rong
shi wo hu lue le ni ye hui you xiang yao ku de gan jue
mei you yi zhong fu chu ying gai yong yuan xin gan qing yuan
zai gei bei chong huai de nan ren zui hou yi ci ji hui
huan wo ren nai huan wo deng dai bu yao zhen de qi quan
you were my superwoman
an jing de zai shen bian wu tiao jian gei wo meng mei yi qiu de wen rou
but i am only human
wo zen me bu dong ni duo ji mo can ren de fan le cuo
bu neng shi qu ni
shi wo ba ai xiang de tai jian dan
yi wei zhi yao wo cun zai jiu neng rang ni qu nuan
xin li wei yi de superwoman mei you ren neng dai ti
bu neng xiang xiang geng bu neng yuan liang zhe yang ba ai hua cheng hui jin
you were my superwoman
an jing de zai shen bian wu tiao jian gei wo meng mei yi qiu de wen rou
but i am only human
(xi wang zhi shi yi ge zhi shi yi ge ren)
wo zen me bu dong ni duo ji mo can ren de fan le cuo (bu neng shi qu ni)
if you feel it in your heart and you understand me.
stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me
you were my superwoman
an jing de zai shen bian wu tiao jian gei wo meng mei yi qiu de wen rou
but i am only human
wo zen me bu dong ni duo ji mo can ren de fan le cuo (bu neng shi qu ni)
you were my superwoman
ooo~yes,u were
an jing de zai shen bian wu tiao jian gei wo meng mei yi qiu de wen rou
but i am only human
wo zen me bu dong ni duo ji mo can ren de fan le cuo (bu neng shi qu ni)

2010-12-09T23:01:00.002+08:00

I wish I could make myself drunk. But stupid house stay this far for what. I can't even have a chance to do so.
I wish I could smoke all the problem away. But I have to be responsible for myself and people around me.
I wish I could take the car and just bang the opposite car but i don't have to guts to do so.
I wish I could be more understanding, but that's just me having dilemma in myself.
I wish I can jog out of the problem but I know avoiding isn't the solution of all.
I wish I could have all the time in the world to fit in everyone but I can't cause I am occupied by things that I don't want.
I wish things could turn back like last time but I know this is reality.
I wish I could sleep and waking up with the second day is as usual as last time but I know dream never allow me to do so.

There's just this so much I wish I could but i'm not capable in doing it. I just screwed my own life with my own hand. Nothing is much worst than seeing people around you getting hurt by you and you can't do anything to change it. Hoping that time will heal everything. If so I really am waiting that day to come.

2010-11-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

This second sem is coming to the end. Nearer to the holiday everyday. It can be consider as a long sem for me yet short. Long is because the previous sem took up only 3months while for this sem the duration is 2x longer than the previous one. Looking back at the first day up to now, those lesson i learn everyday and how i grow and get myself adapt to the new environment is just so remarkable. Pros and cons which I don't want to mention too much. Just that overall of it was quite awesome journey.
Was thinking when I am having my holiday, it can't be considered as a holiday because i have other stuff on hand i have to work on every time i have my free time. Quite hate those life but i just have to get used to it.
I can't do and help you as much as I can now already. That's what i am afraid of.
Can't be there when needed.
Looking at the positive side! It's good also to learn how to be independent a little bit sometimes. :)
No more superman mission! and wait, no more ICE! that's the worst part of all !
Anyways, that's just some little concern of mine and it will be alright cause i know we can face it and effort will be put in.
Bit by bit, one step at a time and the whole thing will be build and hold strong.
At times, a little bit of scratches and scars couldn't be avoided but we still get through it every time and we will still be doing great! * i don't know what i am typing also actually *

2010-11-15T00:10:00.003+08:00

I somehow quite miss my high school life. Of course, the exam part couldn't be excluded. That's the best part of all. By that time, way back to high school time we think life wouldn't be any worst than us here. Study tuition everytime but end up failing the subject too. That's part of the enjoying moments. We learn how to climb back when we fall. All the outside school activities, there's just so so so much to be written but I will just cut it short. I miss some of the mamak session, skip school, the time where we stay over in cybercafe, the moment where we spend our day at pao's house and also the sports and all. Not forgetting all the craps and jokes. We didn't take much picture together but it have all captured in my memory.
I am very grateful that I have a bunch of awesome friends that accompany and coloured my life in high school. If they ever read this, they might think it's quite geli or what so ever cause of egoness but I really miss them so badly. :)

What a day.

2010-11-13T22:07:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time ever since I wrote something about my daily life. I find out that today I start my day off with such an experience.

My sister somehow got a post in PBSM in her school. Meanwhile, she's going to attend the camp held by the club every year. I don't really recall the name of the camp and I don't even want to know about it. They committee asked them to attend a meeting and the purpose of it is to inform and give those who will be going to the camp some brief information.

Now I can start off with my 'interesting' story. I wonder which stupid fella state the order saying that if you reach early you will get bonus or what so ever. The meeting for this morning actually starts at 8am. REMEMBER THIS! FREAKING 8AM!! and you guess what time my sister drag me up. It's at 6AM in the early morning when the moon haven't even change shift with the sun. She's not all to be blame, i promised her earlier so I have to just do it. Wondering why they all are so afraid of being late or reach on time for the meeting. They chose to reach wayyyyyy earlier than the time being set and do they ever know the people beside them will be involved in all this too?
The night before my sister told me I have to fetch 1 of her friend there too. It was okay for me to fetch just one. Guess what, the second morning she told me i have to fetch 3 of them! I already hated the guys from that area (obviously not my friends) and I have to fetch them. This 3 fella that came in my car this moring looks freaking YS! they just remind me of those "i want to be tailo" dude. They never say Hi then come in and never even say THANK YOU when they left the car. Just so you know, that's not a very hard word to be said when you got help from someone and you this 3 freaking YS dude mouth have been sealed? I reached there around 7+ and after that it was still quite early before i go to work, so i decided to go grab some food for my breakfast. Went to kopitiam, drank coffee and eat 2 soft boiled egg. At that moment i feel like I am a younger version ahpek. Well I guess that's all for the day.

2010-11-07T01:04:00.001+08:00

Same word that comes out from different mouth really make a huge different of meaning. Please so it takes a strong heart to digest that

2010-11-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, life just doesn't go as how we wish it will be. There are just so many people pulling you back. People asking you to do things their way and expecting the result they wish for. Nonetheless, did you ever think for the consequences and worries that might have make a person doubt when doing anything similar with that?
Sometimes there are just this selfish desire of me wanting to leave everything back and just go do something with the one i care the most. This sounds silly but that's just me, another side of me thinking in that fantasy world.
I wish,
Time stops ticking
Slow down the footstep
Hold on strong &
Appreciate every second

2010-10-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

There are times when you make me laugh
there are moments when you drive me mad
there are seconds when I see the light
though many times you made me cry

There's something you don't understand
I want to be your man

Chorus:
Nothing to lose
your love to win
hoping so bad that you'll let me in

I'm at your feet
waiting for you
I've got time and nothing to lose

There are times when I believe in you
these moments when I feel close to you
there are times I think that I am yours
though many times I feel unsure

There's something you don't understand
I want to be your man

Chorus:
Nothing to lose
your love to win
hoping so bad that you'll let me in

I'm at your feet
waiting for you
I've got time and nothing to lose
I'll always be around you
keep an eye on you
cos my patience is strong
and I won't let you run
cos you are the only one

Nothing to lose
your love to win
hoping so bad that you'll let me in

I'm at your feet
waiting for you
I've got time and nothing

2010-10-11T14:40:00.004+08:00

Just like another day in college. Waiting for friend after my class ended.

As I was thinking, it is about time for a change. A change for a better future. But at the same time there is also stuff that I concern. However, for now I am not going to post anything emotional because I am not.

Things have been going very smooth recently. It is just the matter of fact that how we look at it. I learned how to look at it. Well, I will try to maintain it in the good condition.

I just feel like writing this.
While for you, being together by my side is never easy. However we still manage to pull it through and come over to here. It is just so delightful and lighten my inner heart to know that there is a person that I could rely on, I could miss of every time I open my eye. Be my listener and look into every side of me.
To the person that look after me when I in whatever stages.
I appreciate your existence in my life lots :)

2010-10-03T01:41:00.002+08:00

alright, i'm in a mess now. I don't know what's in my mind. There's alot and alot turning inside out. Having such dilemma deep in myself, i myself don't even know how it happens. I tried to be very good to myself but it turns out badly every time it comes to the end. I hated myself, I hated myself for why i'm behaving such way, why i got jealous so easily, why i got frustrated so fast, why i can't even think nicely, why i can't even distract myself, why i can't even be myself, why i ruin my own life in my own hand, why i know how to advise other people and i can't do it, there's so many why in my mind. and seriously I HATE EXPECTATION! since from small i hate and now i've all grown up i still hate that a lot.
Perhaps i'm not too good in anything. I can't even keep things in it's shape and turn out in a mess every time. yet i don't even know how to read people's mind. Yes alot of people said i've been talking to myself. I admitted that's very true.. Very true, i have been talking to myself a lot. Questioning and answering myself. i just hate how much life torture me. and more like i torture myself.
How much i wish i can just punch on something and everything just flies off like that. I don't like to be alone. but i cant do anything. shut up.

2010-09-27T14:45:00.002+08:00

Things are just so unpredictable, humans are just so horrible
you can't really judge them inside out no matter how close you are with them. It really suck a lot
Being understanding and being in the exact position are totally two different view of saying it
The outlook and the inner of it... at last i understand what it means by faking a smile
Yes I studied psychology but it doesn't mean that i know it all. There's still a lot to be learned
It gives you a trauma whenever you face something and you dare not do it again or say it again
Thinking twice before doing something and scare of the consequences
That's what is it all about

Fraser Hill

2010-09-16T21:13:00.008+08:00

This holiday was a worth spending holiday. Ignoring all the other working and exams, I shall continue with my holiday trip. It was something that I've never thought and I enjoyed it.
First of all I went to Fraser hill which located at Pahang with families. It was a tired trip because I will be the driver most of the time. That was the first ever time I visit that place. It was quite okay the environment there. Especially with the FRESH COLD AIR! Let the pictures do the talking.
And also to let RonYap know how we spent our holiday. XD

2010-09-06T14:21:00.003+08:00

Have been a long time I never really write a post of my own life. There's nothing much interesting happen. Normal daily life and some shock at times. Die Die hanging to wait for assignments. This semester is not as hectic as the previous one. Not that much work loaded but there's also just the matter of a longer duration to do it. It has been almost 2months ever since I enter this semester. Knew quite a numbers of new friends from other semester but didn't really got bonded with them. Might as well mind my own business.

Oh well GOOD! I need to take my both test on the same day which is this Wednesday and the Role play as well. I might be wearing a dress because I will be taking over a woman's character. Holy COW!! Have to pay for the consequences for picking the easy work.

Not to complain on stuff or anything but I really hate weekends at times. I'll just feel how much lifeless I am doing something that is not progressive. That's me, how I deal with stuff and convincing myself over stuff. But HEY! holiday's coming! real soon...Half of me wants this holiday so badly but another half of me is terrified of it. People out there that knows me well will know why. Don't really want to mention it here. However it conclude all that I really want to rest.

I really really got a lot I want to do, but obstacles are around stops me from doing it. How much I wish I am a superman and I could just fly in and out. Jumper can be taken as consideration too. Likewise, I will just stick there and take every single opportunity I fight it back. Changing a new environment is not a bad thing. But I don't have a chance to do so. Just shut up and not talk much. Enjoy with I have now and appreciate it. :)

HEY 2 MORE BLOODY FREAKING 6AM WAKE UP DAY AND I'LL BE HAVING MY HOLIDAY ALREADY!!
GOOD BYE 6AM!

Because you loved me

2010-08-29T21:05:00.002+08:00

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

When i heard of this song I thought of you. <3

2010-08-28T01:18:00.003+08:00

Though I have did alot of mistake and hurt you for times. I don't deserve to be forgiven and you still give me the chance to love you again. Thanks alot love. I don't mind how u treat me. I deserve all this payback for what I've put in with my own bare hand. I will still treat you the same as always and stand by you regardless of things. Having you around back is a gift from god. Sending such a person to care for me and I myself was a idiot that don't appreciate and take good care of your heart. A lot of things that you face and I never help you out. I feel bad for everything. I really want to stand for you every time. But i ended up making it a mess.I really want to see you happy again. Seeing you like this and much more you will be facing is the worst thing ever.
For now Ng I-Fern. i know i don't have the right to say much to you.
But I love you since the day one. Things that i've done are just unforgivable yet I really want you to be by my side. I really us. Anyways, i will always be waiting for you till the day become bright again no matter how long it takes i will always wait.

2010-08-18T09:13:00.002+08:00

Yet another morning, but this morning abit more special. A day where I thought that the day will be the same but it's not! Reach college around 7.40am, I was SHOCKED! all the CPUs' student gather at the ground floor and saying the electric got cut and the whole day might have no class if this continues. After awhile of waiting, the technician fixed the problem but looking at the time has already passed the 1st period. The lecturer announced that the 1st period class will be canceled due to time matter. Well that's fine for me because I will be having business leadership class for 1st period. Went to oldtown with bunch of friends and I guess oldtown is just a freaking ugly lucky ass. They will be so rich this morning. Most of the Cpu student are all over the place.
After the breakfast, I went back to the building was about to go up to 4th floor but half way there I heard that the class have been canceled too. Just because the lecturer wants every period to be equal so that she will be teaching the same lesson to every class. That why I have my own sweet time blogging here this morning.
Was wondering can I skip the moral class and OLC, if I get to skip both of the class then I don't have to come over here today for nothing. Somehow I can't or maybe I can? well see 1st.

Stupid blueblack is getting worst by day. Somehow it feels pain even if i didn't walk to anywhere.

Sorry if i made something wrong in between. I don't wish that to happen.
I just can't hold myself back from how I'm thinking. It is just overtaking me and I'm struggling with it. Forgive me for being so selfish at my own. But I do really care and I don't want us to be like how we are just because of this small little crap. It's nothing one. I know we can get this through.

2010-08-12T14:25:00.002+08:00

Life's just getting better by day I guess. I'm not sure when things will hit me again but I'm very satisfy with what I have. Well human always ask for me by time. Stable down with life and getting much better by the flow of my routine. Just that sometimes it would have heartache and urge to see someone such badly. Nothing special happened to me recently but just a normal college life waiting for stuff to hit on me. What I'm happy now is that waking up every morning with blessed and love.
Been learning all the way and hoping that I could hold all this stay strong. I BET I WILL! I'M VERY DETERMINED IN THIS!

Nothing much I want to write here but just a BIG BLESS THANK YOU.
Thanks for not feeling that I'm annoying over stuff and prove to me again and again =D
I just love the way you help me out over things.
Me too, here wishing that you could smile everyday like how you are with me. =)

Lifeless

2010-07-26T14:29:00.002+08:00

Everything In life just goes up and down in this little short month, or I should say its somehow a long month for me. Nonetheless, everything just turns to a better side and staying consistent. That's a thing for sure I hope. Actually I don't really see much exciting part of my college except the part where I got assignment or assessment and my heartbeat skip once. Had been a long time I never felt this way. Anyways, life still goes on no matter how abnormal my heartbeat is.

Well I do admit I'm in a mess this month but no matter how it is, I'm still back up here and everything just turn back to normal or even better. Frankly speaking, I found myself standing on the right spot now and how I am suppose to play my role.
Mistake still mistake but right, no one outside there had never done a mistake!
As long as we know how to turn n look back at our wrong footstep, that's more than enough.

I know I gotta face lots of work and most probably it will pile up if I were to continue this way. Well the road ain't easy and nothing comes free and everything happens for a reason. Accept the fact that I'M A LAZY BOY =P
And no matter what, thanks to that particular person that never step a back from mine and hear my ranting all the way through this few months.

One interesting thing about my college now is that, I'm all new. I gotta learn all AGAIN! Break time is the BOMB! Most of the March intake around 17-20+ of us will have our break together and it will be a mess especially BILL TIME!

*I had already finished my college and waiting for DIXON at comp lab while blogging here*

2010-07-11T16:02:00.003+08:00

Sunday,Monday... Tuesday will be the day I have to wake up at 6am and drive all the way to college. Getting back the routine that I've left for this past 5 weeks. A kind of mix feeling strikes me for all this to happen so soon. My holiday wasn't that productive after all. Not been doing what I wish for. Partially. I can feel that I will have more tough time coming when this 2nd semester starts. Got more subject that previous and I don't really like the life over there. Not that kind of life I wish for, but I can do nothing with it. I'm lost now with the subject I chose.
Assignments to come and I certainly don't want to do till midnight and being accuse saying that I'm playing computer game but not doing assignment. Looking back at my college life, there's more suffer than joy I can see. Yes I'm somehow envy of some other people out there having such a wonderful life, but what I can do. LIVE WITH IT.

Got back my result. I'm kinda satisfy with it and it's more than what I've excepted.
Honestly I've not been doing the every best of mine for that because I'm a very lazy person and have been doing last minute work most of the time.
I never blame on anything in timing just that the efficiency of own work doesn't cope up with the others.

Selection of subject is just like shit. I'm totally blur in which subject to choose.
I lost my track. Saying is always easier than doing.
"Choosing which subject you like and just study with it"
if as easy as that I won't be like what I'm now. There's this thing called as combination of subject. The weight age for each assignments are different and when it comes together will be like a bomb. So far I've just chose leadership in business and computer science. This is certainly a bad choice because both doesn't relates to what I had learn at 1st semester. While for the another two will be the compulsory subjects.

Sigh, maybe things doesn't goes as bad as I thought of.

If you all so disagree with my study and wanted me to work so badly
why not just stop all my studies and let me work all the way at the 1st place.
By this way you won't have to worry bout money spent by me anymore in future.
Isn't that a good choice? What for I study so hard all this while. You should tell me earlier what you had planned.

2010-07-04T23:54:00.002+08:00

There’s this one fine night I was on Rahman’s(ns friend) bed and I told him I’m not in the mood all this while in here. He told me, no one would ever cheer you up till you have the intention to do it yourself and open up the window. That time I don’t really understand what he mean by that but now I think I got it. Control yourself over stuff does help. Catch back the mind that is still flying around and think from another way of it. I know saying and doing is two big different thing. However, I’m still very new in this and yet learning step by step. Mistake is for sure but depends on that one person is willing to take and learn from it or not. I got even much responsibility now compared to last time and I have to step on it so that it will not overtake me anytime from now. Thanks Rahman buddy I’ll remember that you told me until I really reach the stage of actualization.

Holiday Or Hell?

2010-06-21T23:54:00.004+08:00

Should or shouldn't I said this. I'm having my Sem holiday now until 12/7. It half of it was relaxing and fun because I don't have to think of assignment and worry about college stuff except the subject I will be taking for next semester. while for another half, even though I'm having holiday but it doesn't seems like a enjoying holiday as usual. I got working issues and it is just seems to be very normal, but deep in it wasn't as easy as that. There's like a devil and angel inside myself. Thinking of holiday should be enjoying and get to hang out but I couldn't leave things behind just like that. Nothing comes free and easy. Some might thinks that this kind of thought is somehow immature but this is just me. Sometimes that feeling just overtake me. However I still can't stop how you all wanted to look at me. How much I thought bout it, I'm still back to square one. It doesn't make any changes, just that the feeling of denial is just there for a short moment. I know I have to live with it and how much time given to me it will not help much unless my heart has opened up to accept that. I'm totally fine with what comment comes to me cause I know myself well. It will be hard for me. So its okay. What I think is that I don't want to miss out but on the same time I have to do the right thing. These two will just always clash and sometimes I have to pick up the right decision.

(I'm not angry at you or whatsoever so don't worry. No hard feeling, things are just like how it suppose to be. I know how it feels when u put hope on someone and ended up feeling disappointed.)
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Time passes by real fast and like u said the longer we stay, the harder to say Good Bye. Yes very true. From time to time where we are that shy to each other at first and hey look now. There's surely a big difference. We are totally retarded doing stupid stuff together. Being honest with each other does help. I'm glad that you're opening up to me. I'm just so comfortable with your existence. You somehow just inspired me in a way and not only you learn a lot but it same goes to me. Looking at things moving around makes me feel more appreciate and don't make silly decision that the heart doesn't want to. Thanks to you, even sometimes you don't really know how to help but you know I don't need any advise. I just appreciate the ears your provide whenever I need it.

Random Thought again

2010-06-15T22:53:00.002+08:00

Things are just going so fast in my life. Although I never experience all this much but I've seen much from my friends. Going in as if it is a merry ground and without thinking of the consequences. Sometimes, we just need to fight for the thing we want. Even if we failed to do so, at least the effort is there and shouldn't give up just like that without even thought of trying. Looking at them putting the effort in with the ending that not everyone want to see.
Looking back at my own footstep, I'm very lucky enough to stand at where I'm currently. Been though obstacle and challenges and yet I'm still on the right track with you. I want this to continue like how we wanted to and it always will. We will go through all together in future no matter how much it cost. Cause I know that we both play a role in this. Just note that, I will always there for you syg. We will always do that like how we used to. :D

Tolerance, Initiative, Understanding, Effort, Time, Scarification.

Little Reflection

2010-06-08T20:46:00.001+08:00

I wrote a lot of reflection for my assignment and presentation before during college time, but I never thought of writing a reflection for myself throughout the entire time I spent in college and what kind of life I have been gone through.
When first in there, I keep remind myself to be friendly and independent no matter in what condition. Learning is part of the progress I have to go through. I never expect myself to use Microsoft word, Power point and Excel. All I need to do is start from zero. Observe and learn that’s important. I used to be very talkative and active during the first month but, when time passes by. Things just go so wrong for me. How to do assignment? I have no idea. All I know is just to follow the instruction and ask if possible. How much effort I have put in it shows on the result itself. Rank 4 is the highest grade and my average was only 2-3. Very seldom I’ll get a 4 but just for that several times. This theory is like what u had planted and you will get back what it will grow.
Time management is a very important skill to be mastered as I mentioned before. But I’m just good at saying but not doing that makes a difference. What’s in my mind when doing assignment was not the grade or result but the requirement of the assignment. I urge to finish the assignment every time and I end up doing it last minute and light up the midnight oil. Because of that I got myself into an accident. As a conclusion, I’m not a good plan master.
Looking everyone walking around the building having ISU on top of their head just makes me feel so sick. Monday blues especially. They would just ask “hey what you got for your grade” and at last “not bad well done” I somehow feel the sarcasm. Most of the time I scored poorly and I would just sit at the corner asking a few of them. While for the rest they would just walk around comparing and praising. It is very hypocrite for me. Maybe I’m just being prejudice. Cause I’m a Malaysian and I’m very satisfy with my result no manner how poor it is. I know no point complaining around like an idiot and knowing that it won’t make a different. I see a lot of flaws in myself during this period and I’m still trying to fix it or I never will. This is just so pathetic.
One best thing over there was get to know various kinds of friends from different country. Iran, Sudan, Russia, Bangladesh. Even if they were from different countries but don't take that as a reason for them not to communicate well. Think about ENGLISH as a language and it will solve all that problem.
Somehow they are very helpful and friendly and I totally see I different in myself. I’m not a joker and whoever stays beside me, I’ll just be a boring person. No matter what, 1st Semester is coming to an end this Thursday after my Challenge & Change final exam. Have fun during the Sem break. *hopefully*

2010-05-23T13:46:00.010+08:00

ISU is coming to the end around 2 more weeks and I'm glad that's coming so fast..
After a while in college, I realize that it's totally not the same as high school.
However, what's more to come is my SEMESTER BREAK!! which falls on 19th June.
Just hope that I'll get more rest during that period of time.
Don't know is it I'm from the March intake and it just so rushing for me.
My heartbeat eventually are faster than usual last Friday because of the two major assignment that I need to hand up on that day itself and I'm not really 100% doing well in both of it

Self responsibility is a must to be mastered as I had been through whole this time. For myself, I'm still on the progress to learn all this and I dare not admit I'm good at that. I messed up everything most of the time.
However, you never leave me walk alone. There's no word how grateful I'm throughout all this time. The memory and all the little thing we had done it is just all over my heart itself.
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Tomorrow you'll be going to have a new life. It's going to be okay there Syg.
You'll be able to adapt to it very soon. If you face any problem there and you need someone, I'm there for you. Fake Fake I also your senior!
But at a different place =P
WHO ARE YOU MEN! NG I-FERN! Small kacang for you la.Ish
No matter what I'm here to listen.
Thanks for the day as well for not kicking me out.
I have fun also with you sister instead of you.
Sorry to tell you that. XD
*One thing I know that isn't going to change is what's inside both of us*

Left: The RETARDED one.. <3

Random Thought

2010-05-16T23:41:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I'm just so lazy to do things and move my body. But at times I'm just lost of myself. I don't feel secure. I just want to get out from my life and stay inside the dream. But there's no such thing as it. I'm just a loser that worth nothing..
I need pressure only I will move my ass..somehow I'm slowly used to it already..
Just sometimes when more and more things come together. I'll lost my mind and need time to reorganize my work all over again.I learnt a lot this 2months and it just tells me that I'm living in a small world last time and there are more and more to go.
I need my semester break so badly.

Sometimes I'm just so Pathetic. I knew things are coming ahead but I chose to avoid it and pretend not to know that its happening and don't want to ask cause I believe things will go vice versa.I do care even if I looks like I'm not. Looking at one's breaking down and couldn't help. The feeling is worst than dying at times.

The feeling you gave me is so different from what i got previously.
& I'm very Thankful for that.. <3

What a day..

2010-05-15T00:25:00.006+08:00

At first today(14/5/2010).. I wake up with a moderate mood even though i know its my day.Went To college... rush for the assignment survey so that i could hand up right on time to Mr.Colin..Hamlet's test after that..I cant wait the clock to reach 3.30pm. I wanted to see her so badly.. I miss Her.. =(

Going out with you is very satisfying already. You accompany me watch IPMAN2 which u had already watched before. I know you are trying to make me Happy in a way and yes I CAN TELL YOU THAT I'M very HAPPY TODAY!!!!
What a surprise...After watching the movie.. we went for a walk and how good of you.. saying you hungry and pulled me in TGIF..
All of them are over there..Who's all of them? Penny,Woei,Azwan,Andrew,Steffi,Joey,Dixon,Adwin,Angeline and not forgetting my syg..
Ok. i admit i'm touched at that moment.. i never thought that you will plan all this for me.
At the first point, What i was just thinking of spending the day with you =D
but you planned out so many for me.. Thanks Syg.. I appreciate it..
Don't be afraid of me getting mad.. I'm not.My mind just gone blank at that moment..
I'm not scare the world..... I LOVE YOU..
cause I know you worth the Love and Yes no one else could replace you. <3

Not knowing what else to say but just...Thanks for that guys especially
To:Ng-I Fern.. I hate you!!! U damn Jin Kak you know!!!! =D
You gave me a blast on my BIRTHDAY itself and you are there all the time with me.
I never regret To have you as my another half.. I do really mean it.
Not knowing what to say but... I Realllllly Love You that much..<3
and I will never forget what u had done for me.. =)

HAppy Birthday...

2010-05-14T00:20:00.001+08:00

HAppy Birthday To myself.. Yea I'm 18 now and legal!!!! So Just Happy Birthday..

2/5/2010

2010-05-02T23:26:00.004+08:00

Well ya college what else i wanted to say.. who say CPU is easy..
Nothing is easy there..
assignment staking up 1 by 1 and Im moving back step by step. I guess i'm gonna lost myself soon in this course.its somehow hard for me to concentrate after what I had gone through all this while..My mind just not into studies that much..
Sometimes I thought of giving up on this course and take up another 1... but its just a waste of time and money.. so better not to. just hold on as long as I can.
My grade gradually decrease compared to the marks previously..
English.. the worst ever subject..nvm forget bout it. I lost my track whenever I enter that class..
Friday ya.. the old tradition in my hse. 3weeks in a row.. Iraq Vs America.. bored of it .. somehow I choose to ignore it and continue with what im doing and i dont raelly care if u take me to compare with whosoever..
cause i know im still meeeeee.. i wont be changing much for it..
Niway. everytime I reach home.I can feel a peace here which is so empty and quiet.
everyone is busy doing their own stuff and guess what, i dont even bother talking to one another or entertaining them.
ITS like real EMPTY till i can ignore everything and lay on living room looking at the fan and think of random stuff.
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and yes after this, i realise that im actually living in my own world.
I thought u all will follow my idea like last time, but no..
I admit im wrong in this case, cause I'm trained to be like this.
ever since secondary, all of u cant make up any decision and i'll just random pick one and all of us will follow along.
i thought this time will be the same but hell ya im wrong..
End up some quarrel which nvr imagine things will comes to this stage.
I finally give up and just compromise with what u all want.
my selfish and ego causes alot of problems and discussion for u all i know.
I apologize to u all here if i ever did anything wrong..
Cause i cant afford to lose u all sincerely.
I dont wan bcoz of this and break up our friendship..
______________________________________________________________________________________

No matter how many times in future this happens again,
I'll not leave u.like i said bfore no matter how much it cost and
it's worth it for me
i'm nt giving up on this even till the last minute.
its not easy to go through all that to reach here and i'll keep it on.
Just hope that u can fulfill my that *a bit little more* quest.
i know its a little bit evil eventhough part of it is from my selfishness..
I'm out of words already now..ya sry im not good at presenting myself in words
and just to let u know that I Love You and thats the facts that will nvr change. <3

Back At One

2010-04-28T17:41:00.000+08:00

BACK AT ONE-Brian Mcknight

It's undeniable... that we should be together...
It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis is need to know, if you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real...
If all things in time, time will reveal...
Yeah...

One... you're like a dream come true...
Two... just wanna be with you...
Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me...
Four... repeat steps one through three...
Five... make you fall in love with me...
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One (yeah)

So Incredible... the way things work themselves out...
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about babe...
And undesirable... for us to be apart...
Never would of made it very far...
Cause you know that you've got the keys to my heart
Cause...

One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me
Four.. .repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One......

Say farewell to the dark of night... I see the coming of the sun...
I feel like a little child... whose life has just begun...
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine...
You threw out the life line... just in the Nick of Time.....

One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me... girl and...
Four... repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One.

ps: just for u.. <3 ILY...

Days and days and days to go

2010-04-07T00:07:00.004+08:00

ya im the only 1 who r studying in the CPU building and i need to rebuild network..
my Challenge & Change in Society class only have 9 student including myself. WHAO!!!
niway.. its fun also cause we r somehow bonded compared to the environment in English Classs .
Ya English Is like hell.. its totally different from what we learned last time.
They teach u from different kind of lens to make analysis on a poem,songs,movie or even novel.
complicated? So so its the same to me..
im still standing middle of no where and trying to go somewhere..
Its like the first week and lecturer already put their effort in putting in all the assignment and info on BlackBoard7 aka BB7(a web portal where they submit their course document and essay)
and i guess i should move it up and NO MORE SLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS KILLING ME!!!!

i guess we both now know where we are
and no more doubt wit it
i jus feeling so comfortable holding ur hand even its abit sweaty cause there're some chemical effect in it XD
i know u care for me as much as u do and i do appreciate it
dont say u''re useless and cant help.it isnt the fact keep that on mind
u helped me go through alot than u can imagine NIF ILY 25/3/2010 <3

New

2010-03-28T23:09:00.003+08:00

29/3 will be tomorrow and its also the day i step in college officially..
Everything has its first time i know and this is mine for now..
Need to learn everything start from zero again..
Adapt myself into new environment .. new friends.. find parking every morning tat's the worst.
I know it need some time for me to get myself used to the new condition of it and i will try my best working on it..
Like the rest said.. human chg after tis n that and i will experience it start from tmr..
just hope that everything stay on track and it dont have much impact..
Everything NEW tmr.. and Good Night.

Random

2010-03-21T15:00:00.003+08:00

Went To Alwin's hse for BBQ party .. know wats the purpose of the party? its bcoz his parents went overseas for holiday so they somehow like celebrating it. lol.. we reached there kinda early then followed by yong thong and the rest..
it has been awhile i didnt go to his house. still the same .. that big and comfortable..
some catch up moment wit them and whaooooo not bad they still that lame especially Thong..
makan all the way.. steamboat the 1st round. then 2nd round then 3rd round after that shift to
BBQ!!! WOEIII QUeen OF CHICKEN WING!!!!!!!!!! but u didnt do for me this dearest cousin..fine.

After not long.. we get to know that Thong's car kena hit ... he parked his car at another side of
Alwin's hse...here is some of the sexy car's photo... The Impact Here comes the Tow...

Heart pain when see his car.. its like the limited edition of it..
pray pray Thong's parent dont kill him for this cause its not his fault..
He parked his car in a housing area and suddenly the indian wit his car come and bang..
tat guy said that he got blackout for a second and press the acceleration pad as the brake..
and that guy was sent to hospital for check up for his minor injury..
God Bless You Thong.. dont worry.. its not a GOod day for u.. thx for the joke niway..

Art Of Love

2010-03-17T22:49:00.001+08:00

Art Of Love (Ft. Jordin Sparks) lyrics

I say sorry in advance,
Cause this always wont go to plan,
Though we don’t mean to take our love for granted,
It’s in our nature to forget what matters,
And when the going is gettin’ tough,
and were all about givin’ up,
Things we thought we never goin’ to say we say ‘em
Games we thought we never goin’ to play gunna play ‘em,

It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it,
And it’s always getting better,
It’s going to takes some, time to get it right

Coz’ I’m still learnin’ the art of love,
I’m still tryin’ to not mess up,
So whenever I stumble Let me know,
You need to spell it out,
You need to spell it out,
You need to spell it out,
You need to spell it out for me,
Coz’ I’m still trying to learn the art of love

If I forget to get the door,
Remind you that your beautiful,
I know my detail requires more attention,
If I ever hurt you it’s not my intention,
Coz’ were gunna make,
Our mistakes,
Find out how much your heart can take,
But I know that,
you got my back,
And baby I got, yours

Coz’ I’m still learnin’ the art of love,
I’m still tryin’ to not mess up,
So whenever I stumble let me know,
You need to spell it out,
You need to spell it out,
You need to spell it out,
You need to spell it out for me,
Coz’ I’m still trying to learn the art of love

Sometimes I’m gunna miss (I’m still learnin’ how to)
I’m learning how to give (I’m still learnin’ how to)
I’m not giving up(I’m still learnin’ how to)
I’m learning how to love
Learning how to, love

Coz’ I’m still learnin’ the art of love,
I’m still tryin’ to not mess up,
So whenever I stumble Let me know,
You need to spell it out,
You need to spell it out,
You need to spell it out,
You need to spell it out for me,
Coz’ I’m still trying to learn the art of love,

The Art of love (I’m still learning)
The Art of love (I’m still learning)
The Art of love (Still learning)
I’m still tryin’ to learn the art of love
Still Learnin’ (Art of Love)
Still Learnin’ (Art of Love)
Still Learnin’ (Art of Love)
I’m gunna get it right sometimes, coz’ I’m lovin’ it
Still Learnin’ (Art of Love)
Still Learnin’ (Art of Love)
Still Learnin’ (Art of Love)
The art,
The art
The art of love

Lin Xiong punya pasal

2010-03-16T00:08:00.004+08:00

What A Day To be Driver.. Wake up around 9+ prepare myself then went down to catch up wit my dad..sorry to delay ur work dad..i know im late..
Bcome Ahmad for him like around 11am-5pm..
went to cyberjaya then putrajaya then pkns office
after that maybank.. here n there then back to hardware shop the old place..

The Stupid Lin Xiong.. told him yesterday d that today we're going to celebrate his bday for him
and he stupidly go out wit his cousin to bukit tinggi for badminton.. wth him...
nvm fine.. he said that he's going to come back around 8+ to join us while we r also playing badminton at metro there.
after not long.. he called again and said that he's coming back around 11+.. diuz..
ffk all of us.. its like around 7 of us waiting for him and he ffk us all...sigh..
we wanted to watch movie and badminton at first then bcoz of him we go for badminton and he ....
wanted to give him a sweet 18 birthday memory also cant.. fine forget bout it.
my back n left hand is in pain now.. its cause by driving for a loong hour and play too much badminton since yesterday and today..
just a short post for today..

i will giv you all the time you want
its hard for you i know and it same goes to me.
just hope that you dont giv up easily in all this
we will go through this together believe me

10/3

2010-03-13T00:03:00.003+08:00

III MMMM BACKKKK!!!!!!
Ok lemme start all this wit 10/3
Morning seeing all those NS kaki went back.. dont know why even if im not going back yet tat time cause i will be leaving at 11am.. Dad fetching
but the feeling of sadness just comes out from no where..
i know its because of the 2months++ friendship and now it comes to the end..
all from different state gather up and cheer for each other ,now all of us need to go back our
own hometown again...
Its something miracle i can say..
the 1st day u go there.. u will be crying cause of homesick(i got homesick but didnt cry XD)
and for the last day.. u will be crying cause u will be leaving the place u
sleep,play,eat,kena punishment all those and the most important is ur friendsssss

I learnt alot from there actually..
learn to be independent.. enhance ur self confidence..
ways to communicate.. leadership.. strengthen ur mental n physical
much more i can say.. lazy wana list it all..

Cut that part..
continue wit my BALIK KAMPUNG story
my dad reach camp around 11am..
then Zen ,Serene and Iqa follow along cause they dont wana go back at 11/3..
THANK YOU DAD!!
Sorry i have to be selfish for this time.. i dont wana go back at 11/3 ..
i wana take my result wit my friend.. i dont wan to feel left out from there.
I know You have to sacrifice ur time to fetch me from Selangor To Perak..
i reach my mum's shop around 5pm cause we stop at some certain place to drop my friend and eat rest.
Then At Night went out dinner wit old Friend...HAd some talk n jokes back there..
Feels Nice To come BAck here at last eventhough i still somehow miss CAmp life..

Back here Many thing changes i can see tat out.. even friendship..
The Thing tat didint change is tat.. we still having Basketball every friday.. lolx
I do Admit Human will change followed by time.. but i nvr expect this fast ...
Well Just Be Yourself The Best..
Feel so outdated when im back here serious!!!
which friend can drive which haven.. which enter college d all those i also dono.. LMAO!!!
Will try to Spend More time with family bfore college start IF CAN..
this is bcoz human will more appreciate something when they lost it..
even if i didnt lost it but im far apart,so consider a lost for me also...
Thats All For This Post..

Short HOliday T.T

2010-02-14T02:59:00.002+08:00

This Cny Holiday is seriously Short for me..
not tat satisfying even i get to holiday to Langkawi la..
Bfore i kena NS.. i planned to much for tis year CNY.. house visiting n other else cause
all know how to drive so transport shouldnt be a problem anymore compared to last year.
who knows.. all gone wrong..
i back from Ns for holiday.. but i cant spare some time out wit my bunch of frens.
feels bad know.. but what to do.. time limited.. family comes first bfore friend..
maybe will call them out when im done wit NS..
when im back here..most of them went to college like the others do...
im the 1 left behind..but there're some still slacking in home everyday la i know.. lolx..
he read tis he know who im talking.. haha

They asked me to go out yum cha so many time.
but i rejected cause really cant spare the time out.
rushing wit time for this CNY..
i bet they wanted to see my brand new hair style la.. haha
their pattern nvr chg...
bit disappointed wit myself leaving them bhind..
however some of them i guess still busy wit holiday assignment kan

some of us think tat after High School will be free like bird flying there n here..
ya we now seriously like a bird flying there n here..
but we aint going back the same bird nest..
all spread going off out own path..cant even meet if didnt plan any gathering o outing.
i do prefer high sch life now. life still have to goes on right.. but i jus hope tat..
u all done go away wit the relation tat's alrite...
Promise u guys will giv u all a shoot when im back later kay..
Thanks for the caring n invitation of all..

Back Home For CNY !!!!

2010-02-14T02:01:00.004+08:00

After around like.. 8am bus till 3pm.. i finally reach KLANG CENTRAL!!!!!
im BACK FOR CNY!!! but the time given is kinda short.. jus around 4days..
im back here yesterday but post today cause too tired after such a long trip from perak to selangor.
My 1st ever post after i came back from National service yesterday..
At 1st i started to complain stuff there n time passes by very slow..
after 2-3weeks .. i start to adapt wit the life style there.knw their pattern well much..
was excited 1day bfore come back here ..cant reli sleep.. but still sleep la as well.
human still human kan..

I even did someting tat i nvr expect myself will do over there which is writing a diary..
night life there is like night safari.. but the boring safari. we be the pet there..
have to obey wit everything .. so there's not much activities at nite and none to talk with..
i decided to write my own daily diary at night time..
left my dairy inside my locker.. forget to bring it back..
even if i bring it back here.. i wont be writing it also.. cause im writing it here already.. haha
i even played M16 n flying fox 2day bfore i come back here.. it was fun to be exact..
wanted to play again if got the chance....feel like shooting again.. lolx

The Worst part there is tat have to do activites during noon.. 2.30pm
the sun is like 12oclock on top of ur head then u have to wear army uniform stand stone there
cant even shake a little if in ready condition..sweat like raining on ur head oni..

I still need to spend another 2week-3week after i'm back from CNY to there..
I'm a official graduated NS student... then oni slowly cope back wit life here...
Will post more when im back.... Pic wit some malay guys there dormmate..

MA BED!! N LOCKER!!! see my doreamon blanket!!! aha
Inside my dorm.
Alignment of Shoe over there.

Some Random Pic over there which i bet some of u all wanted to know tat much
hows life there kan.. haha

DAys Before NS..

2010-01-01T18:20:00.004+08:00

I will Start Wit this..
I gain alot throughout this entire year..during my form 5 life..
i get to know more frens...joined lots of activities as well..
i also Get To go for countdown duh .. which i didnt join tat much for the past previous year..

Kay thanks to my Family today for bringing me to buy my new year cloths n all those..
prepare all tat i needed .
without u all i think i might not sit here and type this post easily..
ok Forgive me if i'm being rude to u all n even complain bout tons of stuff
during my this whole year..

Another Thanks to My bunch of Frens which hang out wit me always n make me smile tat much.
even sometimes im being played as joker la.. i dont reli mind well.. haha
U all gave me a wonderful memory throughout this High School Life
u all Share me tear n cheer .. but mostly is Cheer la

Well To YOU.. stand tough kay.. dont fall easily even im not there to listen to u..
Go on find ur direction of life Cheer up dude... ^^
I might not be standing by u when u r down in this period of time.
but i belief u wont anymore ryte. haha
N there are more coming soon from me when im back !!!!

And This Will be the Last Post Of mine bFore i WEnt to National service.. Adios Guys n Girls.

Blog Will be updated in around 2-3months time..
All My :
facebook status
MSn
GArena
friendster(die long time ago)
Blog

Will be temporary mati for 3 months..

Merry Xmas

2009-12-26T01:51:00.003+08:00

First Of all MERRy Christmas to All of u Christian or non christian
but i belief even non christian also celebrate xmas ryte. i meant countdown la..
same goes to me..Went pyramid wit bunch of fren for some countdown.
tis year 1 Seriously Makes me feel Warm During Christmas.
maybe its bcoz im out from the work atmosphere n join them along
o i had not been tis siao for tis holiday..
well. thanks guys n girls for inviting us to there.but i didnt giv them comfirmation at 1st la
here's some pic of the day..

All Spray Kaki over here

Okay guess whos leg is tat.
Me & Fern

Bunch of group of the day

This maybe will be the last outing wit them perhaps o not...but.. i do appreciate the time over there tat's the point.

N i'm going to National Service Nex Sunday..
sooooooooooooooooooooooooo tis will be the 2nd last post bfore i go ...
I'll be missing all of u guys. =(

2009-12-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

I'm SO fucking hate coming back home..
i do for u all let u all satisfy then can .. why cant u do it back to me..
i wanted to go out i also need to tink 3times..
burn the fking shop down la.. fking eating all my time oni..
cant i show my expression on my face?
only u r the 1 who can let anger out? i cant?
what am i.. ur slave? ur dog??
dont fking let all ur anger on me..

u r the 1 who dont even care talking to me.. everytime oni working topic..
u dont find its boring but i do..
u dont even care who i hang out wit.. what i wanted to do all tis long..
then scare there n here .. scare i join the wrong person? doing illegal stuff making u shame on other?
dont care..
my brain isnt tat retard as urs..
u hate some1.. go on hate.. dont influence me wit ur stupid reasons of hating her..
u tink i do listen to u wit all those nonsense ?
i dont even bother listening..

u wanted to go u can go.. me how? wan go out also need tink ..
ask for ur permission is more fking terrible than going to hell..

tink urself.. wad u have done till so many ppl cant get along wit u..

2009-12-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

SPM BYE BYE BYE BYE BYEEEEEEEEEEE

i bet i'll be missing sch soooo muchhhhhh..... hahahahhahaha

Foward Email..Employeeeeeeeee's life..

2009-12-05T02:02:00.001+08:00

Some1 sent me tis foward email.. i found it interesting so post it here.. hav a look at it..
AS AN EMPLOYEE,

* the biggest motivation is salary

* the unluckiest thing is promotion without salary adjustment

* the most "syok" thing is you don't work anyhow also get pay increment

* the greatest talent is "carry big stuff"

* the greatest mistake is to argue with your boss

* the most demoralising thing is to receive salary late

* the most pitiful thing is you did not get your salary and your boss ran away

* the happiest thing is you become your boss' boss

* the cleverest thing is you are late but boss doesn't know

* the stupidest thing is you publicly say that you are lazy

* the most common thing is - the boss says something but means another

* the proudest thing is you sack your boss

* the most "rugi" thing is you work hard but your colleague takes the credit

* the most dangerous thing is to become a "two-headed" snake

* the biggest satisfaction - sending e-mail like this during office hours!! heheheheheheheh....

"Congratz Me"&"Wise Government"

2009-12-04T20:10:00.003+08:00

ThAnks To The "WISE Government"
I've Been selected to join NATIONAL SERVICE aka Khidmat Negara..
i belief many ppl familiar wit tat name ryte..
i was told by my fren to check either i get to join the 1st batch or not..
unfortunately.. i've been selected.. among so so so so so many ppl
i have been selected to join NS.. lagi lagi 1st batch..

3JANUARY2010

i'm gotta leave my facebook.msn.blog.garena.my game.my kawan kawan sekalian.
n ciao to
PERAK

Sounds fun ryte... i hope so.. they said its fun over there.. 1st batch n somesoft of other things la..
Hopefully i'll hav fun over there la.. n my CNY nex year as well..

Happy birthday Mum!!!!!

2009-11-12T01:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRHTDAY MUM! LIttle Cake For Ur Bday tis year without Bro.

Not Tis Mum.. DOWn dOWN PIc Isnt Tat Bright cause Doesnt hav time to take pic.haha..

2009-11-08T19:55:00.002+08:00

Special Good Bye N Thank You To...
teacher from
Delta:
Mr Lau-Add math
Miss Chong-Math
Miss Linda-chemis
Mr Moey-physic
Beloved Mr Sugu-Account

Alpha Tuition Center:
Mr Alfred- Chemis & Physic

A1 tuition center:
Mr Siva Kumar-History

E.T tuition Center:
Mr Thomas-Bm
Mr Mani-Chemis(just for salt tat chapter)
Mr Ram-Biology

Thats All..

2009-11-07T21:54:00.003+08:00

First Of all im not going to write how many days left from 54385248324732 days to 1x+ days..
Having My sweet time tis somehow called as holiday.. which is our own holiday..
sch nvr stop operating.. jus tat we stop operating ourselves to sch only..
been having group study tis few weeks..
Group study.. nice to hear.. hard to do.. its harder to complete the study task when there's so many
joker in the group. gossiping n talking thoughout the whole study progress..
somemore got time go watch movie when exam is around the corner..
wad's impossible u say..

watched THIS IS IT..-
its such a waste he went off at this age..
he prepared so much for the concert n he jus doze away like this..
okay.. seriously salute for him..he's so professional in no matter wad condition..
wats a waste the concert didnt get to turned on..

The show maybe doesnt mean much for some other n they dont get the meaning..
but.. it has its own meaning under it...

2009-10-17T03:37:00.001+08:00

Perhaps I'm NOt the perfect 1 & i wont be 1.

2009-10-17T03:11:00.000+08:00

I'm Back to my old town life.. Ntg Change..
fill wit fren's laughter n idiotic act again..
after turning a big round.. im now still the same me..
n it makes me realise something tat i nvr tot of it ..
opened up a new view ...

2009-10-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

Start My Engine N Start To Catch Up The OTHERS!!

2009-09-27T03:50:00.000+08:00

Its Good To have a Heart With No Feeling.....

I'm GOnna Let You Finish~~~~

2009-09-25T01:58:00.005+08:00

CLICK on The Pic To ENLARGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Sweet 16.....Rudy

2009-09-24T01:31:00.005+08:00

SWEET 16!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEllo RUDY Seah Kok Yiong..(dono spell correct o not)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIAL!!!!!
I BEt u WIll be "SUPER" HAPPY WHEN U saw tis..
Here's SOme Present From me.. Enjoy IT.. ngek ngek ngek..

OHya.. Forget To wish U pulak,
All DE bESt In uR FinaL Year Exam Kay.
I'll Be visiting u NEx year Again... muahahahahaha..
U R doOMED!!!!!

Welll U R 16.. so i make u looks lik 61.. muahahah
Rudy Fix Ur Teeth OKay? Don Take Sweets from me nex time.
POSER SIAL!~~~

Pic Edited By:Cy

2009-09-24T01:07:00.002+08:00

Kay.. Another DAy again..
Went Aeon Today as i planned yesterday..WIt Adwin N Heng Kian..
Went there to relax mind while.. makan BBQ PLAZA as breakfast then watched GAmers
Adwin Watched tat half way las time.. so tis time We watched it Full la..
Somehow Me n Heng Kian faced the same problem yesterday i tink..
Been Puting our words on msn.. called him come online at midnite 4.30am.
cant really sleep..
Chillax Buddy kAy..we Sama Sama Chill..
Now Im Okay edi i tink.. jus him the fire still there..

Really Wanted to Go out during nite know..
Go mamak wit frens.. lepak there.. talk cock..
but.too bad la.. i hav my limit.. which i tink mostly every teenagers faced tis problem ryte.

I kinda ruin everything recently.. which i dono wat is it...
Just So not Correct wit the way i settle stuff..
or the attitude i being recently..
For real i dont reli good in catching ppl's mind ..
IM SUCK AT TIS!!!!

2009-09-23T04:44:00.001+08:00

WTF
IS
WRONG
WITH
ME
sigh

2009-09-22T23:55:00.002+08:00

I dono wats going on around me..
its just so Wrong to me..Or maybe im the 1 who make things look so wrong?
Perhaps i Look at things easily.. n treat every1 the same way..
n sending some of them wrong messages....
tink so i should hav fix myself on tat..NOt every1 can follow the flow im going with...

SSSSRRRYYYY

2009-09-19T23:49:00.001+08:00

OKAy Seriously Thousand Appologizeeeeee To Those Who I Put Aeroplane To Them,

SORRY PENNY NG at first for letting u know i can make it n 2nd day say i cant make it..
Sorry Limay.. Giving u FAke HOpe..
Sorry Fern,Adwin,Angeline,Teh,Joey..

Stupid Exam..

2009-09-13T18:43:00.003+08:00

A Fine DAy For HIstory Exam..Studied much for HIstory..as if la..
Den Enter my classroom.. dont dare to tink much o talk much cause scare all the point i memorize
will be forgotten ltr..Stupid idea ryte..
After 1hour++ doing the history paper.. Tired Writing essay n those..
My fren saw the indian Guy sitting front of me... Brought Hand phone to sch..
den nvm its normal ryte.. BUt.. tat Indian Guy..scare no ppl know he brought phone.. This is how he put his phone bhind his pocket.. He jus sitting front of me oni. PUFF!!! NOW the Phone no more edi.. HE still didnt realise tat.. The phone is wit me.. hehehehehe..Steal it without his knowing.. lolx..

kay Tats alL For today.. HAppi Exam everyyyyyyyy11111111

2009-09-13T01:55:00.002+08:00

Maybe I Just Need more Time For Tat..

OR I am Dumb Enuff NOt to Get Wat u Trying to send Across..

I M not good Enuff for it perhaps...

Im trying to change the condition n the bond..

i do really try.just giv me some time ....

WIShesssssssss

2009-08-31T19:02:00.003+08:00

Okay There's A few Stuff I WANA Do after The Freako SPM!!!!!

1) Settle Down What I Should Have Done..
2) Movie Marathon!!!!!
3) Mamak Till Late Nite Wit frens...
4) Basketball at morning/night
5) Learn Swimming!!!!!!!!!!
6) Shift To New House ASAP
7) Burn All My Secondary BOOK!!!! if i can la.. hahahaha
8) Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep Lik No Tomorrow!!
9) GAmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
10) Catch Back all The Drama i miSSSSSSSSSed....

Thats all TQ.. muahahahahaha... Cant tink of more now..

Happy Birthday Sor Wen

2009-08-23T01:23:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY To
Miss Lim Sor Wen Aka Princess Wen
OK wiShing u Having 1 unforgotten Birthday Celebration Wit Ur Another Bunch oF frenS Tml

Celebrated her BDay Today..
Went to Aeon Wit all Primary mates to have some fun.

Went to Green Box Then Movie THen Walk Along the shopping Mall..
Hopefully U will Like all the present we gave u ryte..

RAndom Funny Story lagi~~~

2009-08-09T01:46:00.001+08:00

Dear Ah Lian

Thanks you for your letter. Wrong time no see you. How everything? For me, I am quiet find.

You say in your letter your taukeh soh want you to chain your look? Somemore you must wear kick kok soo, hope you can wok properly.

You know, Ah Kau Kia working in a soft where company now. Last week, he take I, Muthu & few of his friend to May Nonut to eat barger. After that he take we all go to kalah ok. Muthu sing and sing no stop until the sky bright.

Next week, my father mother going to sellerbread 20 years annie wear sari. My father mother going to give a fist to all the kampong people. So you must come with your hole family.

I only hope one day we no need to write and send letter to you and to me. Better I e-meow you, you e-meow me. I will ketchup with you soon. And when you got time, please few free to call me. Goo bye.....

Worm regard,
Ah Beng

Stupid Weather!

2009-07-29T22:50:00.003+08:00

OK Im back to SICk moDe gain..
Im having Fever /Sorethroat / Flu now..
I wonder is it caused by the weather change in Malaysia..
Damn it.. Morning Raining n Chilling..
But comes to the noon.. HOt SHit!!!
Could hear many coughing sound when assembly today..
Maybe they also kena Sore throat i tink..
Perhaps tis is the Symptoms of H1N1 cmg? haha.. Touch wood touch wood..

Woke up in de morning n can feel tat my bone is so sour n hav some mini pain in it..
i Tot its Js some normal lazy feel or wat.. den went to sch lo.. after not long i realise tat im having fever edi..

Slept during the Add mAth class..N woke up tat time.. my eye is so watery n redish .
i dont knw it till my fren told me so..

So went to visit doctor when finish sch.. n end up at hse now..

USJ 4 IU day.

2009-07-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

IT Has been A rushing day today.. HAv to go to scout.. then
USJ 4 IU DAY
OK lets skip bout SCOUT part..
Straight to USJ4..
CAlled Adwin fetch me to my mum's shop n take car..
Then drive to there fetching HAnsen n Dixon along.
Hopefully they dont Complain bout my driving skill la ha..
FOR of All..CONGRATZ To USJ4
FInish their IU Day d.. MUch relief n Free now ryte..
nothing to worry much edi.. I knw u all feel tat also kan.. haha..
Overall THE IU day kinda successful..
The Ending PArt RoXX the Ppl there..
then Fetch Fern n frens to some how call YAM CHA.. which means minum teh.
BUt we go YAM TONG SHUi..

THe Worst part is tat.. i went to the Wrong LANE during back tat time.
Lucky SEi Penny tau how to turn balik..
hmm.. finish fetching her back..
i was thinking of staying over at eng ann.
BUt mum called n told me to go back cause dad wanna eat dinner wit me.
so so ma go back lo no choice..
NOw i UNDERSTAND DRIVING ALONE IS SOOOOO
BORINGGGGGG HELLLLLLLL

BRO I KNOW HOW U FEEL LAS TIME WHEN U DRIVE ALONE RUSHING BACK HOME.

Random Jokes

2009-07-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom saw an envelope propped up prominently on the bed.

The letter read:

Dear Mum, I eloped with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with you and dad.

John is the love of my life.

I love all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and motorcycle clothes.

By the way, I'm pregnant.

John said that we will be very happy together.

He wants to have many more children with me.

In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for Aids so John can get better.

Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself.

One day we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren.

Your daughter, Judith

PS: Mum, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbour's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk drawer. I love you! Call when it's safe for me to come home.

Random Pics Gain.. ^ ^ Enjoy~~

2009-07-13T21:23:00.013+08:00

SMILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE